WALKING HER UP THE AISLE
Last month I walked my daughter up the church aisle to hand her over to the new man in her life. For me, it was months of conflicting thoughts: Suddenly my arms felt empty! She'd nestled there through most of her childhood life, waking me in the middle of my sleep to tell me something that deprived her of hers, and after I had heard her out, talked to her, comforted her, and allowed her to lay her head awhile in these same arms, she went back to sleep, while I lay awake trying to solve her worries which had now become mine. And then I had to walk her into a new life: One, where I wouldn't be around to hold her along her new baby steps. She'd have to walk forward, hopefully guided by all that her mother and I had taught her, and finding new confidence as she shaped anew her own family together.
And so I went through a variety of emotions.
But a few days before the wedding, I woke, worried, suddenly a new thought came to me; that the One who had always been there for me, would be there for her. What was the need for worry? "Lord," I prayed, "Take my fears away!"
The calm that followed was dramatic.
It was like a gentle wave flowing over me, removing with its ebb all conflicting emotions.
Just like she had lain in my own arms, I felt strong Godly arms take my care-worn head and gently stroke my tear-filled face.
"Bob, I'll care for her, like I've cared for you. Like you've been a father to her, Bob, I will continue being one for her! You will walk her up the aisle, Bob, but even as you step aside, I won't. I will walk on with her and him. I will be there besides them every step of their lives!"
"How silly of me to worry, Lord!"
And then I felt a sense a peace, a stillness which God above had enveloped me with, and which I know would be there for my child too, as she too, going through her own varying thoughts and emotions, would get to know, that even as her earthly father stopped at the end of the aisle, her Heavenly Father would walk on with her, into her new life..!